Saturday, April 30, 2011

My Quilting and Posting Moratorium

Wow, it's officially one month since my last post.  I feel just awful about this because I really miss this opportunity to commune with the quilting community.

It's been a difficult year for both good and bad reasons.  I started off with high hopes and lots of enthusiasm, and considering I was sick off and on through March, I was doing pretty well.  And then......

A business opportunity presented itself that I couldn't walk away from.  Whether or not it will be a success, who knows?  But since like everyone else in this economy I'm looking for some cash flow I couldn't pass it up.

And so, I've been on a self imposed quilting and posting moratorium.  I can't think of the last time I picked up a needle and thread, it's been at least a month, maybe more. And, well, you know about the posting; pitiful at best.

I'm one of the lucky ones in that I've been blessed with multiple talents.  Of course, it's a blessing, but it's also a curse.  The problem I have is being able to focus on one aspect of my creative life exclusively, which is what I need to do if I'm going to be truly successful at it.

The times in my life when I've had that kind of focus have been magical.  It was during those times that I won awards and contests, and my confidence grew.  However, being the Gemini with the split personality I am, I get bored with everything too quickly. 

Lately, I've been trying to get back into quilting again.  I've been pulling out old projects, looking online for fabric, even going through old magazines, trying to get the thrill back.  It's not working and it makes me sad.

Have I given up on the hobby I love most?  No way!  I'm just in a quilting slump and I've decided that it's best if I don't force it.  From previous experience I know that one day soon I'll start salivating at the thought of going to a quilt shop, and I'm looking forward to it. Besides I'll have more money to spend on fabric and that fancy machine I've been ogling if my new business venture takes off.

Maybe that's what it is.  I was beginning to think of my quilting and blogging as work, as "what I do."  Wouldn't it be magical to just quilt because I want to?  Not because I think I might sell it or get noticed by some quilting bigwig and be launched on a fabulous quilting career?   I'd actually love to linger over my fabric, take my time cutting and designing and spend a year on one project that I love working on.

For a while there I was thinking that I might manage to make a career of this quilting stuff but now I'm thinking that that isn't what I want it to be.  Work is a four letter word for a reason.  My new venture will satisfy some of my creative urges and keep my mojo actively brewing for other projects.  It won't be long before quilting, (and blogging), are the places I go to unwind.

I'm looking forward to it!

Happy Stitching!

Susan